Forgiveness To My Inner Child
It’s OK to be an adult I said at age 3
Forgiveness is a quality that is hard to connect with sometimes and that can leave a stain on the soul. After an amazing weekend on a much needed retreat, all I can say is I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’ve neglected you, put you last and made you feel unimportant. My inner me, I call her mini me, got stuck in layers of responsibility and hustle. She got lost in my constant correctness to be better daily and to achieve bigger and better.
Mini Ari got her responsible pants on at age 2.5 when my mom took me to my first day of school and instead of crying and not wanting to leave her side, mini me turned around when my mom said, “Ari do you want me to come in with you?” and with my little palm tree hair do, said “Mom, this is my school…” turned around and walked away.
Let’s just say (in Spanish the word is antipatica) and in English it’s kinda like unfriendly.
I learned to read and speak English and Spanish by myself at age 3, was singing in Japanese and French at 4 (I have a tape and it’s freaking adorable) and was top of my class most of the time. This is not a bragging post. It’s the I grew up too quickly in my head post.
What do I mean by all this, and why forgiveness? Well because I have taken these achievements on me til now and I have let the fun I had cartwheeling, jumping rope, playing in the water go to the side because I am on a mission. I am an entrepreneur and this is how it has to be… work work work, and when all is done, play, but I’m so tired!
Keep going like this and a. I won’t like my business anymore b. I’m gonna look 50 before I even turn 38!
How it all changed
After having the right conversations, the experiences with SRI (somato respiratory integration) practices, I realize asking for forgiveness from my inner mini me and tell her to make a play date! I told mini Ari that it wasn’t fair I made myself grow up so quick, to be over responsible and to be so determined.
Now since I got back, I dance in the morning, I let my guard down and realize the MOST important and valuable things in life are those hidden moments.
Why do we put up these walls? I know they don’t work! My wall was preventing me to move closer to the real me… and the real me smiles a LOT and dances to Shakira when cleaning my house in my underwear. I forgot about that. The real me goes to the beach A LOT MORE!
It’s never to late to be 4 again. It’s never too late to ask for forgiveness to that little kid inside of you and tell her you are doing it ALL so she can be safe and secure.
How to reconnect to your inner child
- Do a cartwheel (and if you can’t do one pretend and do the best you can)
- Roll down a hill (I found a golf course and rolled down laughing histerically)
- Wear your favorite outfit that makes you feel young and free!
- Laugh for the sake of laughing and smile when you talk.
- Ask questions that you normally wouldn’t because you feel weird.
- Stop judging yourself!!!
- Find a playground and go down a slide or climb the monkey bars
- Eat your favorite thing as a child even if it’s not “good for you” us super healthy peeps (you know who you are!)
- Sing in the shower
- Dance in the rain & make a mud pie!
I know you might be wondering WHY you would want to do this and my answer is WHY NOT.
Sometimes logic can take a back seat and feelings take over. Trust me, now I am more excited and motivated than ever to work on my business because I have fresh eyes… child like mentality where anything is possible, and you know what? Already it is working!!! I am in flow and just this week some incredible opportunities came up that will dictate my future!
Forgiveness as a tool for growth
To end this blog post, I ask you who haven’t you forgiven? Is there time? Heal old wounds that prevent you from moving forward to the authentic and highest aspect of yourself. Take the time not only to forgive yourself but also anyone else who is stuck inside your heart, mind and spirit. Once we set this free… the world is ours!
I would love to hear from you (in vulnerability and total support) so please write me back or schedule a call with me and let’s talk! You know I am all about finding the you and seeing that move through your business. It’s the inner kid in me who wants to investigate and play with ideas.
Running my business from new eyes, from my mini me self is going to look a lot more fun and exciting! Stay tuned!
Love and cartwheels,